No mood to blog. Don't know why.. hahas kept being EMO nowadays yea.. anyway finally bought my lappy at SLS on Sat! Lenovo Y400. Full payment Thousand Eight Dollars by ME! Awww.. Broke le lar.. i still wanna watch 200 Pounds Beauty and SpiderMan 3 de..!! ='( HAIS.

My lappy got nothing inside.. don't even have microsoft office sia.. can't do anything at the moment. hur hur. =/ Today is Sun ler.. Was doing Statistics tutorial just now until i found a qns don't know how to solve..lols. =x Tommorow will be a long school day.. from 8am to 5pm. >.<"

*the wind is shaking the windows, and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly
too many to count, the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don't be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me, telling me to go to sleep

though I'm exhausted to the point where I can't walk
though my tears blur my vision
I'll still smile in front of my love that I'm not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I'll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I'm exhausted to the point where I can't walk
though my tears blur my vision
I'll still smile in front of my love that I'm not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I'll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won't cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever*

It's translated from the korean song- Star*.. (:

Going to chiong my tutorial again.. Take care.

Yo.. finally had time to write a post..shall briefly said what happened during these days..

WED- abit blur on that day cos i thought lesson started at 9am but actually was 8am..! lols.. so hazel had to mark attendance on my behalf.. thx~ and i missed the entire macro-econs lecture.. Then went to have lunch with my classmates.. Lingling and I had a hard time blending in..hahas =x Took mrt to ang mo kio K Pool there for awhile.. afterwhich met kenneth,zhiwei,dashi and 2 girls to Northpoint. It was raining very heavily when i had to go back to school for the audition and kenneth accompanied me back..hahas thx lots. I was so drenched sia.. Sam called and i saw him..waited for his female friend and we went into the studio. Sat with winnie and her online fren called nicholas i think. We were taught some dance steps by the seniors and stopped our practice at around 9pm. Everyone was back to the studio.. Damn lots of ppl lar.. haha i was being called finally.. yea third last group. lols.. by the time i had already forgotten the steps.. so xia suay can...hahas then winnie was in the last group..=/ Ended at about 11pm then we went home. so TIRED...

THURS- Usual school day but it was very cold in the morning. After lesson went to Ang Mo Kio Hub to makan @ Pepper lunch.Wallace kept calling me potato.. arggg. Winnie, Xinying, Hazel and I sat tgt while the rest sat on another tables joined tgt. So looked like we're anti-social..lols. While queueing saw a cha bor standing outside waiting for ppl to serve her. Then she shouted at the cashier and said where's the queue arh how come I am standing infront of her. [ And behind me were 6 or 7 ppl of us] Super act sia.. then she no choice went to sit 1st. who cares. Had salmon pepper rice. Yum yum~ nice. Hazel described that cha bor as LAO LIAN.. haha we all laughed lar. I was the first to finish the meal..


See what Hazel did to her rice.. (: HAHA cute?

After that the rest of my classmates were going to the arcade while Xinying, Hazel and I went to walk around the hub instead.We giggled and laughed alot... lols. Xinying was super high for no reason.. kept laughing non-stop. On the way home during the bus-ride.. she also laughed like siao =x hahas..

TODAY- Had statistic lecture.. wah managed to listen to the indian lecturer and havent fall asleep despite the cosy atmosphere.. hahas next was macro-econs tutorial.. this tutor didn't come for the previous tutorial.. overall okays still could understand how to answer the tutorial qns after his explaination..though i skipped the lecture unintentionally. =/ Had lunch with stacey,xinying,winnie and lingling. Sth sweet happened wor.. lingling bf jeremy came to food junction. She's holding a bouquet of flower in her hand..I guessed surely was for anniversary de lar.. then i told them so.. and stacey asked her if it's anniversary..lingling nodded her head. Then that blur stacey went to ask lingling how long le? lingling answered 2 and stacey thought was 2 years.. >.<" sotong! opps.. hahas. Lingling folded 131 stars and 4 hearts for her bf.. at first we all were like so puzzled why? we thought it meant their steady date or sth.. but she said it meant 一生一世..wah kan bu chu she's so romantic one.. hahas.. Slacked for awhile chatting then went home with winnie.Was stuck in the heavy rain for like 1/2 hour and still raining.. no choice but to walk in the rain then got home. Realised girls tend to become very soft-spoken and gentle in front of their steads de.. hahas lingling was an example today. Stacey said she was shocked to hear her name being called by lingling until wen rou while her bf was sitting beside her. =x hahas.. think is normal de lar.. 重色轻友.. lols.. =p

Hmm today met them at 11 to do the skit thingy.. went to book a discussion room in the library. Saw aaron and junhao clique inside a room.. wah sehx they're earlier than us.. hahas. Rehearsing the skit.. before that xinying kept complain unfair..=/ lols then stacey swap roles with her. We spoke damn loud lar.. haha then bryan and junhao kept disturbing us as they could see us from outside. All became so high in spirit today.. super high i mean. =x

It's almost time to the start of lecture.. and we all had not have lunch yet. So we squeezed into a lift around 10 ppl, then went to fast food centre there to buy teriyaki chicken sandwich..yummy..! hahas, then off to lecture rm.. followed by tutorial.

Don't know why today Stacey kept disturbing me.. for the entire day lei.. haha she's too high today le.. Tommorrow got the Foreign Bodies and Judo orientation.. =x going to throw face for the hip-hop le lar.. ai yo >.<" hee. It's 12 plus now.. gtg le as lesson starts at 8am tmr. Night.

=)

*Shake head* Now nine plus le haven't do my accounting tutorial.. hahas blog 1st before doing them. Today's lesson starts at 8am.. gosh i'm so sleepy then when i stepped into the school compound near the zebra crossing.. i saw a police car halting and i look inside. The mata driver looks like my cousin...but i aint sure so i crossed without confirming if he is. After that received a call from cousin but i hang up bcos couldn't hear his voice..lols. It's really him sia..I told him he scared me early in the morning but he still said i dao never say hi to him >.<" hahas..

Anyway winnie TAN comes to skl today le..hahas.Stacey was malu-ed during the IT session..=x Quite a nice class i have..i mean we still consider quite bonded and close.. though my clique always seem to be the anti-social kind.. Just bcos we never follow them as a class mah..=x opps.

Went to SA Office to collect Winnie's student card. While waiting, i saw Zhibin with his clique coming in.Hahas.

Had a 3 hr break sia before tutorial started.Went to Food Junction...crowded with people. Spotted our class guys eating but there aint seats for us..boo hoo. After a long wait, we managed to get a table..

As usual, SIX people squeezing to have lunch at the same small table. lols.. The table beside us are 3 unknown guys so u can imagine how limited space we had.. Then Stacey was like illustrating how squeezy she was...her elbows were clutched in..then the guy sitting beside her saw her action and quickly make more space for her.. hahas! Funny lar.. that guy was friendly..
When they were about to leave, he greeted and baded goodbye though didn't know him..

After lunch headed to the library..slacked there for very long.. cannot tahan so went to walk walk explore the library.. =x hahas. Finally found where's the discussion room.. lols. Went home after statistic tutorial.. Tomorrow have to reach school at 11am to rehearse our skit.. =/ hahas.Time to do tutorial...Take care peeps.

Chiong tutorial now.. haha lazy girl right. =x No time to blog..cya takakire.

Just finished watching 我猜。。。 The topic is about those participants changing from sparrow to phoenix, ugly duckling to graceful swan. Awww.. they're so chio lar..hahas. I agree that specs make quite a difference in one's appearance. lols. How i wish..i can become fair and very pretty with sparkling beautiful eyes.. makeover makeover...!!! =x

Spent the entire Sat at home.. wahahas lazy to go out..woke up at about 12 plus. I think i wanna grumble alot of things..firstly is 钱不够用. =( lols.. buying of books...module notes..and food basically. Still can scrape through lar..but if wanna catch movie,and spent lots of money on entertainment..boo hoo~ money money! Especially i'm not working anymore.. ai yo. Moreover i am purchasing my notebook next week. Pocket has burnt a big hole..haix.

Secondly is weight..! Realised that my face is very round lor. Sad..recently kept eating outside food..fastfood somemore..! FATS! arggg. Got to do sth about it.. but i aint exercising for very long le.. lols. I have difficulty in doing stretching already. =/ Slim down please..!

Next week is CCA orientation week.. think gonna go for some of the CCAs that i have registered.. can't possibly stay back till very late everyday bah as the CCAs fall on different dates.

Gtg,Hahas..that's all for today. Now is 1.25am le.. tired man.Cya takkaire.

Today's lecture is so funny...because of the humorous indian lecturer. lols.. Supposed to have tutorial after that..Went to collect lanyard and student card 1st.. when it was almost time to start lesson..a relief teacher came in for awhile and released us early. hahas..

Some classmates wanted to collect their student cards but aint sure where was the office.. so we led them there..then went to shopping arcade there and waited for Stacey to withdraw money. Had mac for lunch.. Chatted alot about our secondary school times..aww i missed those fond memories..though i pretty like poly schedule. (:

Kor will be having exam till next next week.. ai yo. I intended to buy my notebook soon but then don't know which retail outlet to purchase and hunt for good offer. >.<" Or rather wanted to tour around finding promotion 1st before making final decision of the laptop. Now kor isn't free.Oh well...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGcwilKp8ec&mode=related&search=

This video shows four taiwan celebrities competing with one another about PITCH. hahas oh my it was so damn high-pitched..!! moreover they are guys [esp. tank vs. gary] ..! wah..clap clap*

Rushed to nyp in the morning.. because business block was so far away from the bus-stop..!! Saw no one at the usual meeting place..means classmates all went off 1st le. lols =x Almost lesson time ler.. but i went to Cheers to buy cadbury choco. Then saw Wallace inside..asked him wait for awhile because i didn't know where was the lecture rm. Upon stepping out, i heard someone calling my name. To my surprise, i saw Winnie Peng's friend- Aveil. lols.. the world is so small.. only saw him once when going out with winnie and he remembered my name but i forgot his name. =x opps.

Then had a 1hr lecture instead of 2hr as Mr Choo was teaching quite fast.. =) wee.. then our class decided to bring forward the tutorial time to 10.30pm. Mr Alex Choo is our class personal mentor anyway..haha somehow he resembles my uncle-a younger version.

My clique always never follow the class de.. hahas because we feel that we are of different frequency.. =x But then today is an exception i think.. During the tutorial we actually can crap with them.. previously the class rap said we're dao..but we aint dao okays. =p I haven't buy my notebook.. so used Junhao's notebook to play. lols.. I decided to change his wallpaper.. Stacey asked me to search for a hello kitty theme one.. then i found a very pinky one and set as wallpaper.. Lingling, Stacey and I started to laugh.. very funny lor. Hello kitty for a guy..pink somemore..not bad new trend lei..! He said he didn't want to bring it tomorrow.. haha.

Then went down Food Junction for lunch but full house.. then headed to North Canteen..right at the other end..couldn't find empty table.. =/ so went back to Food Junction again..6 ppl squeezing in a table.. LOL. Then saw some of the classmates and Eric... Lousy him saw me never say hi.. still say i have no manners never greet senior.. >.<" diaos.

Afterwhich Hazel wanted to configure her laptop so went to the Biz Helpdesk...Saw that grp of classmates again.. hahas. Just when we were about to turn and walk down the stairs.. they asked us to take the lift.. lols. 10 ppl in a lift..lucky never overloaded. haha..

This time they accompanied me to the shopping arcade there to take the second hand books from Lawrence.. Thanks alot..! Cut down my expenses =) Heavy sia.. then Stacey was helpful to carry the bag with me. Walked to the library to do our project. We drew lots to choose the character that we need to act. I picked the main char teen.. but that char was too ah lian liao.. so i exchanged with lingling.. (: Realised Xinying knew quite afew of my PPS friends while chatting in the library.. hahas. Long time never see them ler.

After that,home sweet home ~


How can the flower fade when it's supposed to be fake? Live life to the fullest. i know you can. x)

Having lunch at home now.. hahas i forgot to bring house key..! Then called my brother and he came back to open the door for me..lols thanks. Today's lesson ended at 12..then after that there's Club Crawl-[CCA Bazaar] My clique they all got friends to meet up then went to the club crawl .. paiseh to tag along so met up with Ker Yih..=/

Crowded inside the Sport Hall.. Walked around then registered for some CCA trials..guessed which CCA have i penned down my particular in their lists? Judo, Kendo, TKD, Foreign Bodies, Dance Company and Volleyball..>.<" LOL. mostly martial arts and dance. hahas.. Saw the performance by the Foreign Bodies.. very jam and hip hop..it was cool but i scared i joined le became tomboyish =X anyway it's just orientation trials..so sign up lor.

Afterwhich went to bus interchange to take bus 72 home. Oh my... there was a SIAO DING DONG or ECCENTRIC guy singing and mumbling alot. Then he kept smiling in a wierd manner and waving to the public..esp. to the guy facing him. Then the normal guy waved back.. =.=" There two guys behind me.. i overheard their conversation. They were saying that that siao guy "act siao" to cut queue. I saw the siao guy's behaviour.. initially i freaked out then um chio.. buey tahan. Inside the bus the siao guy continue to behave strangely.. there was a 20+ yr old guy sitting opp. of me tio freaked out by him.. hahas damn funny lar.

Alighted the bus and i walked home as usual..felt very uneasy and like wanna faint like that. Maybe due to lack of nutrients bcos haven't had lunch.. >.<" See which CCA i signed up would arouse my interest.. (:


She's scared..because suddenly it's clear how much he means to her. -blurrified-

Lesson starts at 1pm today..lecture on accounting. The lecturer mr chee likes to use the pen to draw on his tablet pc.. his lecture was not very clear. Lols, then bryan opened his newly bought Acer laptop during the break. He was figuring out the production keys. Diaos very funny lar made us laugh. Ling ling dropped one of her contact len.. she closed one eye to see the screen =x

After the lecture we all went to the atrium there because of bryan who wanted to go to acer help support booth. Then went for tutoial..also accounting..=/ This female lecturer Fadhlina was strict. Ahh she asked yan hua to choose a no. from 1 to 28 then she picked 25! rahhs that's my register no. No choice tio her module rap. Same time again, the class list didn't have my english name inside.. so tio suanned sia. hahas stupid class rap =x he thought i was angry and dao.. whatever.

Supposed to end at 5pm but we're released early. Went down to fast food centre to meet jiaying,nelson and their AJ friend. Chilled there for awhile.. talked about school life and stuffs.. hoiting and sy never come to nyp today.. Afterwhich jy and i took bus 72 home. While walking out of nyp, there's a group of ppl sitting at the smoking alley there cheering " We love AJ..bla bla". We turned and looked at them then they cheered again..lols. >.<" Jiaying's expression was like diaos.. because she's wearing Aj uniform. hahas.. Bus arrived and saw Phyllis sitting at the back so we joined her. Chat awhile then walked home.

Actually today i might be late if my brother never wake me up. =/ And after i woke up initially thought today wasn't school day...lols jialat. Haix..only munched the breadbun and rushed off to school and never eat till now. So hungry.. gonna eat le.. cya. =)


where's my wing?

1st day of skl... tiring ahh.. hahas. Met classmates outside auditorium then walked to tutorial room..first lesson is effective writing skill...hoho somehow like english lesson. =/ deadmeat. lols.. today he just briefed about the module.. and the compulsory book that i just bought cost $25. rahhs..

2nd lesson is business programming i think.. 3 hours teaching applications in microsoft access. Too cold sia..brrr. hahas, lucky released early for break by 1 hour. Next lesson starts at 3.10pm. I got like 3 hours of free time lei.. then went to atrium e notebook roadshow with lingling and take a look. Then her friends came too and the fujitsu promoter approached us and promoted the notebooks. Don't know why i kept asking him questions and stuffs then seems as debate session. >.<" Fujitsu lifebook is really light..but spec wise and the screen not good i think.. the keyboard looks wierd too. Then we went to Fastfood centre and have our McSpicy Mac Meal..

At this point of time.. got a LES COUPLE sitting next to our table..wah kao damn er xin can.. i was like that laughing because lingling burst out laughing as well. After that her friend just came.. accompanied to the Food Junction and have lunch..then met up with Xinying,Hazel and Stacey at the atrium. This time we were early to reach there..lols. Module taught was statistics.. content was rather dry but managed to absorb the information. hahas after that took bus72 and home sweet home.

Realised that's alot of books to buy. Hope can get second-hand reference book as they are valid for this sem only. >.<" no point wasting $$ right.. if anyone knows please inform me okays.. just in case my OGL Farah couldn't manage to get so much 2nd-hand copies for my class. =)

Gtg for dinner..lols. Takkaire and have a nice day..!

2nd post of the day. Found out that quite afew are starting lesson very late and ending early.. ai yo so not fair..!

He asked for an answer in a indirect way again. hmmm.. have you guys puzzled how come some chooses to stay single and some goes into relationship..? For me, currently i just want to be alone...u all may ask why.. Because i know love needs commitment to sustain a relationship. Tomorrow is just the beginning of new phase of my life. I don't want to mess up my life now for i know i'm poor at dealing with r/s. I don't want to contain any unnecessary unhappiness or worries... i can't give empty promises.. My answer to his indirect qns has stunned him i guessed.. but it's okay i understand e UNUSUAL silence now.

Nowadays my friends are having relationship problems/strains... confession failed/rejection..quarrels..thinkings not matched..jealousy..changing of heart...break-ups. =/ ahhh.. so sian upon hearing.

I need to shut my mind ler.. it's tiring to think of that issue.. really. That's how people sees it at different stages of their lives.. yes i'm afraid and tired for now..haix.

Emo emo.. narh. i'll control no matter what.haix...can i?

you're not disturbing, just that you don't really understand why i choose to be single. I really thank you and appreciate what u have done for me and promise to help me in any way for poly stuffs in the future. Nevermind, i know you won't understand even if you tried to put yourself in my shoes.

So much fear trying to adapt to a brand new environment..fear that mentors dislike me..fear that will have no friends..fear that will get lousy result..hahas.Didn't expect myself to write a second post today... ki siao ler me.. =.=" Have to wear a smile to school tomorrow.. sleep tight peeps...

Current mood:
i'm just FINE~

All i can do is to smile and pretend everything's okay. Sorry i'm not perfect. =(

Now feeling so wierd lar.. like want to faint but never faint..diaos >.<" argg. My mind is currently in a "gong gong" [blur] state..very swirling. lols.. damn. Breathing also got difficulty..zzz =/ Nothing to blog today, resting day. lols so post a poem bah. =x

"Trust

It's not as easy as it seems
living life like everything's alright
putting on a fake smile, act like nothing's wrong
but it hurts, deep down inside

It's not easy forgetting about the past when it haunts you down
slowly it gets worse, slowly it kills you
you can't ask for help, you can't trust
you're afraid of lies, betrayal, and heartbreak too

Sometimes people lie to hurt you
it's just hard to trust again every time
trust is a special but fragile thing
breaking someone's trust is like committing a crime

It's not easy to stop being paranoid when you've been hurt so much
the wounds in your heart will not heal
your heart's hurting, it bleeds
it cries tears of sorrow, you feel

why do you live in self pity and expect disappointment?
the air is getting thin, you can't breathe
you want to live in your dreams, where everything's fine
where there's no sorrow, no pain, where you'll be freed

Lies hurt more than the truth itself..."

©*coral-chi
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Dense heavy head..bth think gonna fall sick soon. 明天开学了。。! SIAN. my partner winnie tio chicken pox, so suay. Rest early ppl, tmr i have to wake up so early to reach nyp at 8am.. have a good start of the week all =)


when you love someone,only you can feel it.when you are in love with someone,everyone else can tell it.

awww..tired tired. leg damn suan.. smallest right toe bleeds.=/ walked too long then got friction..sian. anyway, met nicole,esther and lisa around 12 plus at xinmin. Today afternoon is so hot, keep perspiring.. Revee came for awhile then went back le.

Then went near General Office there to buy 2 tickets. Mrs peh was there to sell it then lisa asked her if she remember who am i. Sad, she had forgotten me..! Mrs peh denied that i have changed and looked so different. I let her see my name then she recapped,"Oh, the dancer is it?" diaos.. hahas. Also saw and talked with alot of teachers.. they're missed man.

Dragged to the "老新民" stall and helped out. The stall name sounded so OLD lor..hahas! Then met aishah.. we walked around and queued to do the henna. Then lisa don't know borrowed the henna cream from who and traced my name avelyn on my left hand. >.<"

My coupons were mostly used to buy drinks and ice kachang lor.. cannot tahan such heat. Saw alot of people coming back to XMS.. hahas =) weixun,edwin and junsheng were damn bad lar.. when i saw them they started to do the "hoon" cheer.. lols so lame..=/

It was raining so nicole, marilyn [meh]and i sat at the canteen table. My junior peiying was sitting behind me..zek ark she's bullying her male classmate to clean the chocolate fountain pot.. hahas..quite long never see her le so crapped with her for awhile.The rain stopped and meh went off 1st after giving her a goodbye hug.

After the homecoming event, we started to feel emo because we're discussing about some issue. haha actually i'm not emo lar.. Mr Singh saw us then sat down and had a chat. Talked about the new principal..his track and field team.. ODAC and his personal experience of attacks by bees i think and catfish..

Seeyuen organised a class dinner so we went to Kovan to eat. Upon reaching, we were so noisy and block the entrance of the mall. lols =x Initially went to pizza hut but in the end we all went to have dinner at the hawker centre. We filled up four tables and chit-chat happily. Long time no see mah..hahas then took some class photos. Upload le send me okays.. hahas.

Afterwhich, some went off le then left some of us heading to hougang plaza to play pool. Sorry it's just too troublesome for you to pass the salopas.. hahas thanks arh. anyway, today like don't have alot of ah bengs and paikias there.. not so bad as i thought it would be. Just we were about to left the K Pool, we met 403 peeps. Edwin saw mi act like wanna fight like that.. so i "fought" back.. lols. yongleong so guai went for all 3 days of the orientation sia.hoho i 2nd day jiu ponned liao..we all chatted for awhile..then there was this girl smoking in front of us lar.. wth. Edwin told me not to become like that girl smoking.. how would i lor imagine sia..i only dye my hair abit copper red only mah..i'm good girl okays.. Then that stupid wx attempted to do the "hoon" cheer again.. argg. lols.. then we all waved goodbye and left.

Took bus 74 with jiaying and seeyuen and i alighted at monfort school there and walked home. (: So tired but it's homecoming day ma.. sy suggested to make this day as 404 day as well.. so that we will still gather together and unite.. school's starting soon on monday.. and my lessons finish at 5pm.. oh my. =/

Sat..watch 我猜时间..! sayonara~


It's too late to think about the past. It has become memory. lols.

hoho.. raining sia when i woke up. Slept for 11 or 12 hours.. until 1+ pm.. opps sounds like piggy right.. no choice lar recently damn tired.

Checked out some laptop offer again.. like no great promotion..too bad lor. Maybe really have to wait until end of May for the PC show. haha =/ Thanks for the help.

Got someone says i'm cold blooded.. lols. am i? maybe you think i give you attitude arh.. diaos. i'm sorry today just too sian to bother other things or sweet talk. Simply not sure what to reply ..Appreciated when u told me you offer to help me regarding poly stuffs. =) really thanks~

hahas i'm just too straight-forward, whatever...! i'm just the way i am. Saw this from See Yuen's blog. x)

love her for who she is.
don't even think about changing any bit about her.
6 billion people in this world & 6billion different personalities.
she's special & she will stay that way.
you change any part of her,
you'll change her forever.
don't substitute her for anyone else,
they are just unique in their own ways.

never promise her that you'll love her forever
because your forever might end the next day.
love her as if each day is the last.

don't just get the girl to beg you to stay or whatsoever.
if you're with her, love her.
don't cause a strain in the relationship,
you'll end up loving
each other out of pity or charity,
that's not respecting love at all.
respect love the way it is &
everything will be the best it can be.

don't expect perfection from her.
she's the only one in the world &
she's done the best she could.

Quite true isn't it? too long le i just copy some.. lols. Tomorrow's xinmin homecoming day.. can get to see classmates and teachers again. *wees*

Off to watch Yu le bai fen bai- watched halfway. =x

Cya! (:


Don't find love. Let love find you.

Edit: Everything is fluctuating in your life right now -- ride these waves like a surfer.

down down down i go.. woots. surfing time. diaos.

Orientation Day 2- Ponned.

Cannot tahan already..so lethargic. Today like no energy lor..sian. Used the hair dye le.. hahas like not much diff. to my haircolour before the dye. >.<" maybe it intenses the brown colour.. lols.

Yesterday at nyp i saw a chubby guy with kim mo [bright golden hair] hahas stands out from the rest sia.. =/

Received a call from a lady; She's from my previous working company de.. telling me that she has just banked in my commission.. hahas diaos.. why can't they bank in together with my salary few months ago? So long ler..anyway better than nothing lar..though the commission is only 1%. *pengz*


Being simple is wonderful..?

Orientation Day 1- Boring.

Took bus 159 to nyp and met Joseph at the auditorium campus centre there.. by the time i reached got alot of people already..then scanned through the surroundings.. saw no familiar faces lor. =/ Proceeded into the auditorium and sat according to classes.

I broke a record..! I didn't open my mouth and talk for 2 plus hours. hahas. =x It's because no one i knew was same class with me and sitting beside me were all guys. arggg. After the long briefing session was lunchtime so headed down to the canteen. lols.. my class is so quiet lor.. at the start. No one chats de.. quite scary. hahas..

But after we had our lunch, we somehow can mingle around and interact hence know more about the classmates.. had icebreaker and played some games. There was this game called island. 3 person to form as island.. abit like catching bah.. before the game starts i saw a girl from another class injured her leg. Could see the big piece of flesh with blood.. poor her.. Lucky i'm not that serious.. only my toes scraped against the rough concrete and bleed.

Managed to remember my classmates' names. Hahas, my partner is called Winnie. again..! lols. She is the third one i know whose name is Winnie. *-* Winnie Ang,Winnie Peng and this new friend is Winnie Tan. (: Guess i can click with people calling Winnie huh..hahas.

Quite close to some classmates as well like Linlin and Tracey . Linlin is a sotong lar..=x did kuku stuff when we two went to buy drinks from Cheers. Winnie went off early as she suddenly gt rashes.. take care arh.

Don't know why headache suddenly struck me when i was at the E-learning Plaza.. Felt damn dizzy and xin ku lor.. afterwhich still dragged so long don't want to disperse us..hai. Walked to YCK interchange and took bus 72.So tired till dozing off while in the bus.Chatted with Kenneth while i walked home. It's drizzling and i managed to walk home sia.. with a SLOW pace =S

Now feeling quite weak lar.. tommorow will be playing games. hmmm don't know if going or not.. till here.



Block my DARK circles please..! ='(

My hair colour faded le.. shade of dark copper brown.Bought hair dye but scared it will darken the current colour..=/

Hmm have you ever wondered how do we learn how to smile..? hahas, i didn't know how to smile radiantly when i was young..i'll smile without seeing the front set of teeth de when modelling..Don't laugh at me when seeing the photos below okays..=x












Guess how old am i [above photoshoot]? It's 9 years ago le...[8 yrs old] Time flies..


Kindergarden dance/cheerleading...? LOL i look sleepy >.<" Lost contact with these girls ler..wonder if i can still meet them not.. even so i won't be able to recognise them le..

Hahas and don't think i'm always with long hairstyle.. never see me in short hair before.


TATA! (:



Taken when i was TKD beginner.. hahas x)

Time passed so fast... Childhood days are memorable and carefree. I wish... i wish i could go back to the past again.

Biz Orientation starts tommorrow..Hope it turns out well and gonna be fun.

*twist*


Memories captured and never forgotten.

2nd post of the day. Watched Pirates of the Caribbean 2- The Dead Man's Chest. It was humorous and i can't stop laughing. x) Wonder what Part 3 would be like.. it's about Singapore if i'm not wrong.

Everytime i online to msn, there will bound to have unhappiness. Why resort to this recently? I don't know what's my current feeling. Pek cek..angry..or tired? You are assuming things that i couldn't figure out the need of it. Perhaps i'm SO temperamental that no one can tolerate.. I really don't understand you, neither do you know how i feel deep down my heart. Situation like this will always appear, as both are selfish [or only me].. you tried to care for me;in the wrong way IMO. I don't feel like typing all these here, but because i have no one to speak to. The purpose of this blog is for me to express my feelings in the 1st place. I'm sorry if you don't want me to say anything out..i just couldn't bottle it up.

Thanks for wanting to buy the salopas; appreciated. but i aint know when are you joking and when serious..

Do you think we have more difference than similarities..? you can't always give in to me. Now you know why that time i said i needed time..

Nothing to say le. My mind is blank. Maybe..the quiz is true. 我的死穴是人际关系。。。It elaborates that I dare not communicate with others.

If you have a choice, would you want to be his/her first lover or the last one? hmmm...

Jibun katte ni omoikonde
Urame ni deru yoku aru kedo
Ikite yukitai kyou yori ashita e
Hito no naka de nani wo motome oikaketa n'darou
Kotoba dake ja wakariaezu kizutsukete namida shita
Mogakeba mogaku hodo kodoku wo samayotte 'ta

i am a bad,cruel referee. don't you think so too? hai.

Ahhh..my right shoulder damn pain lar..! Sooner or later i think i have to paste the tiger brand plaster le.. hai. I woke up with heaviness again and also tears in my eyes. Don't know it's too tired or what.. hahas initially woke up at 8 plus, then back to lala-land till 11 plus. During the 2 hour extension, i had a dream.. a long one.I met classmates in the dream.. lol =x The scene seems vivid but the moment i got back to reality, i forgot what this dream was about.

There was a sudden shower rain just now... so went to bring in the clothes.

Here i am,blogging my dull routine of the day-Slack at home today. Yesterday evening accompanied my mom to go for a haircut.



Till now still have the headache feeling..so i brewed the instant 3-in-1 coffee to drink. Nice~Hope it can increase my level of concentration.

Moreover, i have block nose. Argg. Feel so sick sia..

rainbow balloons in the blue sky!

Take a risk.Make a change & breakaway.can i?

Hohoho today neither did i go for Bball session, nor catch the movie. I went to chinese cemetry with dad and mom and other relatives to "sao3 mu4". It's been quite long since i went to sweep my [paternal]ah ma's grave.Thus, i went this year.

But then out of so many grandchildren, only I turned up.=x and brother didn't come along because he went out to study for his upcoming exam.

Anyway, while driving towards chinese cemetry, there was a heavy downpour. So heavy that when a car zoom-ed ahead of us, the water splashed onto the screen and we could see nothing infront..! almost tio "langar" i could say if you just swivelled...Reached the destination and we walked towards ah ma's grave. Some of the gold wordings engraved on the tombstone had faded.. Oh ya, usually there're short grasses on the tombstone right.. green lotus leaves had grown on my ah ma's tombstone- so beautiful~ if you compared with the rest of ah ma's "neighbours" cos theirs don't have lotus leaves..

Holding an umbrella on my hand, i looked at ah ma's photo. Mom asked if i still remembered how ah ma looks like.. my answer is hardly remembered. It's been so long since my ah ma passed away and that time was 1991. hmmm which means i'm only 1 year old at that time. Though she left us when i was very young, i could still sense the kinship and relation. Somehow my eldest aunt looks like ah ma, and the eldest uncle looks like ah gong. 很像咯!

It feels good when you actually helped out during 清明节. Sort of paying respect to our elders..letting them know that their grandchildren had not forgotten them. (:

Afterwhich, we went to Ang Mo Kio foodcourt and tabao dinner back. On the way, the entire stretch of traffic lights and public light poles at Mandai Road had been disrupted by the rain-Out of order. So don't need to stop, just chiong. hahas..

And my mom bought a pair of shoes for me. I like as i chose de mah..=x lols..

That's how today was spent. Tmr is the start of next week. So fast, and going to 开学了...! =)


If nothing lasts forever, who will be my nothing?

Waaa... wear contacts until eyes dry and tired. Hmm today supposed to watch movie "The Reaping",but last minute cancelled. Then i went online in the afternoon,daryl chatted with me.Quite surprised to see him initiating a conversation and asking me out as i said i'm not going anywhere today due to last min cancel of plan.Hahas in the end i never go out with him.

Anyway, went to Bugis and i'm the first one to reach.>.<" I gonna tell you guys don't ever stand alone at bugis mrt station.. damn there got wierd uncle staring at you de lor.. kao ehhs. buay tahan then i went inside the Guardian store. Bought spearmint candy and a moisturiser.

When they reached,off we went to the temple nearby.I prayed for blessing,peace,and good health for my family.Then i was tempted to "qiu3 qian1"..about my studies de.Considered a bad lot so the paper was burnt away. Then Good luck will come in my way..! =p

After that went to play a few rounds of pool. Ai yo, played halfway then the people there all gathered, seems like got argument or sth.All look so beng one..=/ ignored them lor then we all walked to Burger King for dinner. So full. Afterwhich chilled inside Starbucks.

Received msg from Ker Yih, asking me to watch Mr Bean's Holiday tommorrow but dont think i'm going because i don't really watch comedy..Then tmr still got bball, but not sure going or not..hahas paiseh.=x The readings were quite true to a certain extent,but remember only can take it as a guide. hahas~ Trust yourself is the most important. Am i struggling? hmmm...

By the time it was nine plus so we took mrt and i alighted at Kovan to take my dad's car ride home.During the journey i told my mom i went to draw lot just now.. hahas she reprimanded me that don't be superstitious like an auntie..LOL. True lar, i'm a freethinker btw.

Single or not..? sian. Tired sia..

I have asked an impossible one,yet i'm curious mah.lols..Outcome turned to be good though.Nobody knows what's the question, only i know. So Kenneth, don't think too much although you said you knew..actually you don't. hahas..

Interesting bah..?

I'm definitely not a person who will strive for love, i mean as a girl i'm not daring enough to confess or whatever.Therefore, i'm introvert type. hahas..what am i saying..>.<" keke I want to be carefree..being loved but not being controlled at the same time.

Who can tell me the answer? hahas, i guess it would be myself again~

s.t.r.u.g.g.l.e. within ME.

Time to watch 我猜. Take care ppl. ^^


waiting for the one that'll make mi smile.. is that you or you? i wonder.

2nd post of the day. kenneth asked me to do some online quiz. hahas quite interesting.. some results are kinda true.. some are crap.. lols. Nevertheless, i tried those and the results are as below:

#1:How You Are In Love
You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You're secretly hoping your partner will change for you.

You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.

#2: Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating
You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.
But you may be ready in a couple of years.
You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.
And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

#3: What Your Hands Say About You
You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills.

Flexible and broad minded, you can fit in to any situation. There's no telling where your life will take you.

Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life.

Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life.

#4 The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.
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lols.. that's all for you guys to know me better, though they may not be true. =) night.

Recently addicted to YUI's latest album: Can't buy my love...so soothing and unique~

I only get to know about this female singer when i watched the movie Midnight Sun at Vivo last dec. Also the day when i lost my handphone..>.<" lols anyway anime Bleach soundtrack is also sang by her de.. =) Now the blog music has been changed to her song- It's all right. Talented singer who plays guitar..! acoustic and instrumental type. I admire those people who can play instruments.. how i wish i am able to learn musical instrument when i was young.. haix..sad.




Find arms that will hold you at your weakest,
eyes that see you at your ugliest,
and a heart that will love you at your worst.

This song is nice IMO and his guitaring skill is good i should say.. hmmm i want to learn guitaring but then.. i forgot those notes,chords and stuffs le.. hahas =x

One week before orientation, one day before Good Friday.. lols. Boredom arh..!! =(


beautiful...yet deadly.

How powerful are our eyes...? Are you able to crave figures out of particles like rice, sand or sugar? Today while surfing the net, i came across the term called microscopic art. Fantastic pieces of Art...! So nice...













A girl holding a red balloon, glued onto an eyelash to tip of a needle.














Peter Pan..! standing on a fishing hook~













Snow White & the seven dwarfs..! and an evil witch outside the eye of the pin..

So cool and impressive right..?!?! These fabulous artpieces are done by William Wigan. Some of his work can only be seen under microscope..aww if you ask me to do, my eyes sure cannot tahan and hands will tremble.. =P

:D small is always beautiful...!

2nd post of the day...I concluded that it's NOT easy to be a middleman- a neutral one. Arrgg. Though it's a family issue, it doesn't concern me. Wanted to help but ended up being pek cek. lols..

Nevermind, chill. hahas (:

Anyway, some chatted with me regarding notebooks. Thanks for their reviews..my cousin keep recommending for Dell, as it's cheap and good. hahas.. same sentiment but design-wise and portability... you know huh..but batt-life is longer than any other notebooks.

I'm not as stubborn as my brother, or rather compared to last time, i have learnt to be patient. Notebook offers...hahas as technology improves, surely can get a good deal.For now, i'll just wait,maybe even wait till the PC show then i whack..! see how bah, still long.

Previously eye-ing for the Apple Mac, because of the Mac OS X and the colour of pure white.It's not cheap and spec is normal, unless you're getting MBPro at the price of 3k++.

Don't find me mundane, always mentioning about notebooks okays.. hehe now then i know research has to be done beforehand while buying...whether worth the $$$ not.. good to have people giving you recommendation as well.. =)

Alright, late liao. takkaire ppl.

what it's yours will be yours,
do you believe in fate and destiny?

Woke up by a long ring and it was mom whom called, asking me to bring in all the clothes. After hanging up, i walked to the kitchen there the windows. Woah sehx, it's raining so heavily lor and the floor is flooded. In the end got drenched.. while trying hard to bring the long bamboo inside because the clothes are all soaked with water and the rain just splashed onto me. -.-" my right hand was numb lor then it's hard to do the task. Lucky the two bamboos never fell down from six storeys..which i thought they would. =X

Hmm nothing to blog today, maybe about laptops again. I'm so indecisive yea, can't help it. Now i like Apple Macbook White.. but it's pricey man for the current norm specs. Yet i so wanted to try out Mac OS...been a Windows user all along. I saw the Apple online store, not much of promotion there...haix.. Also, there's another PC show from 31 May onwards... should i wait?Anyway, i will confirm drag on buying my own notebook de... lols.

Brother bought his N73 Music Edition today. Looks nice..hahas. My need for a handphone is basic..contented with the chocolate phone. But then i'm very particular in terms of notebooks...hahas laptops are more ex and i'm the one forking out the $$$ mah..and i need to use it for my tertiary edu..

Nevermind, shall keep on updating with notebook offers until i decide on a desired one. No hurry as i can use my bro's one first.


anyone wants to sponsor mi an Apple Mac? hoho. =o

Haha, nowadays get to know more about IT stuffs..the computer parts and drivers etc as i went to make a research on notebooks..Dell's offer is really value-buy...but too bad, it's bulky. Technology is advancing so quickly that the moment you buy a so-called high end notebook, after awhile it'll just be replaced by BETTER upcoming ones. Oh well.. hahas.

Just now went out with Dad and Kor to Starhub retail shop to see the phone prices..because their mobile plans gonna due soon.That retail assistant is such an @ss who don't know how to use slider phones. He kiapped dao his finger then commented that sliderphones are not good. Lols, or bi good. He claimed that's why he is using the slim bar type.. >.<" hahas cmi. I think singapore service industry should improve on its quality ler..

Hmm..maybe should subscribe for the Mi0 plan instead.


Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow,
we must fail in order to know.
If you want the rainbow,
first you have to put up with the rain.

Hahas..friends did some pranks but i never fall into them.. x) Happy April Fools - 1st day of the month. lols.

Still havent decide which laptop to purchase, i gonna pay for it mah..of course think twice before buying. At first i thought i wanted a home-based laptop, so the specs must have to be good. Thus Dell inspiron 6400 was in mind. But then, thinking of i have to bring it to school, and it weighs about 3+ kg... Nic described it as bringing a watermelon to school. lmao.=x

Now, weight is another factor to consider if i gonna bring it to school regularly.. Should i just buy Fujitsu S7110 from nyp roadshow when term starts, or order the Dell notebook online by tmr? After three years, both laptops would become low value ler what.. ai yo but still hard to decide..

Hahas. Taken the quiz and it shows a medium level of emo-ness.. quite true.My mood is sometime unpredictable..

How I wish i can be pretty with big, beautiful eyes...long natural eye lashes curl..nice complexion and most of all, free of eye rings! Sad. Dark eye rings are circling~

MSN isn't working for me..! eeeyerrr. That's bad as i can't prank people today.. lols kidding =P



Love is giving him the ability to break your heart,
but trusting him enough to know that he wont..