2nd post of the day. Found out that quite afew are starting lesson very late and ending early.. ai yo so not fair..!

He asked for an answer in a indirect way again. hmmm.. have you guys puzzled how come some chooses to stay single and some goes into relationship..? For me, currently i just want to be alone...u all may ask why.. Because i know love needs commitment to sustain a relationship. Tomorrow is just the beginning of new phase of my life. I don't want to mess up my life now for i know i'm poor at dealing with r/s. I don't want to contain any unnecessary unhappiness or worries... i can't give empty promises.. My answer to his indirect qns has stunned him i guessed.. but it's okay i understand e UNUSUAL silence now.

Nowadays my friends are having relationship problems/strains... confession failed/rejection..quarrels..thinkings not matched..jealousy..changing of heart...break-ups. =/ ahhh.. so sian upon hearing.

I need to shut my mind ler.. it's tiring to think of that issue.. really. That's how people sees it at different stages of their lives.. yes i'm afraid and tired for now..haix.

Emo emo.. narh. i'll control no matter what.haix...can i?

you're not disturbing, just that you don't really understand why i choose to be single. I really thank you and appreciate what u have done for me and promise to help me in any way for poly stuffs in the future. Nevermind, i know you won't understand even if you tried to put yourself in my shoes.

So much fear trying to adapt to a brand new environment..fear that mentors dislike me..fear that will have no friends..fear that will get lousy result..hahas.Didn't expect myself to write a second post today... ki siao ler me.. =.=" Have to wear a smile to school tomorrow.. sleep tight peeps...

Current mood:
i'm just FINE~

All i can do is to smile and pretend everything's okay. Sorry i'm not perfect. =(