Felt so tired now.. shagged.

I'm trying to avoid... trying to be carefree.

No matter what i said.. L is not giving up though he agreed at one moment. A mistake is a mistake...maybe that's what holds me so strong not to trust.

R/s issues are really complicated, therefore i don't think i gonna "provoke" it to create problems. Maybe i am selfish. I can't return or give back what others had done for me. I'm sorry.

Hais... when can i get back my real smile? >.<

a.v.o.i.d.

KONNICHIWA!





Friday

No sch due to graduation day! hahas. Went to meet Tzewei & Kenneth to celebrate Damien's birthday.

Had our dinner @ Crystal Jade at Taka. Wahahas cracked some jokes there. lols funny. Actually i don't think the Crystal Jade's food is nice. >.<" But it's a good dining experience with friends. Went to sing bdae song & cut cake @ St James. Happy Birthday Damien~

Saturday

Had 5 hrs of sleep only. hahas. Supposed to go to Hougang Plaza so i walked from home. Wahhh... & it started to drizzle. But i still walked in the rain. lols zai right. =x Somehow the rain was getting heavier till the rain poured down instead. Luckily i was at the Hg Station already... Got abit of shelter. =x Weiliang called & asked me to stay put while he went to find umbrella. >.<" hahas actually don't need ma got shelter le so i continued to walk towards Hg Plaza.

Went there to play pool. hahas. After that i cabbed down to Bishan- 6pm... while weiliang went to attend cousin's wedding dinner. Rahhhss so ex sia the cab fare..!! hahas. Received a mickey mouse plushie. wahahas cute. Sorry the movie timeslot was 6pm & i reached just on the dot. =x Caught the movie " Indiana Jones " with Tw, ken & Damien.Nice movie man..! hahas =) Worth to watch imo.

I ate oyster omelette for dinner. Trained down to Dhoby Ghaut to play basketball. As in the basketball machine at arcade. hahas. My score was 326. hehe played till my hands v suan. Told them it's a good form of exercise le. lols.

After that Tw sent me home.

Sunday

Family day? hahas. Stayed at home the entire day. Just came back from Amk as i had my dinner with my family there. xD

Next week gonna have alot of tests. Buck up Avelyn! (: Cannot so slack le... Wooo-ha! jiayou.

Ytd slpt around 4am while most of you were sleeping soundly. hahas. Tzewei greeted me morning when i hadn't even rest. lols. Not that i couldn't slp but just didn't want to slp. =x

Woke up at 11+am i think. Rushed to sch for Accounting make up lecture. 1 hour only. After that went to eat Mac with Tw. Then we walked to Engineering block to take a look. Not much of a change i guessed.

Left & walked to Amk Hub. Went to look for Tw's friend, Chantel. But she's not working today. So went to play arcade. Basketball & Time Crisis 3. lols. After that we went to play pool. Wah we played at the pool table which looked like 10ft lor. TOO BIG. hahas.

Halfway through the game, i felt quite frustrated already due to something. Maybe i was sensitive but it's okays. Just remained silent. hahas. Anyway, saw Aaron there with his friends when their cue ball flied towards my table. lols.

Supposed to go to Kovan de CC there to watch Basketball match de. Sorry Wenjie. Shall watch next time yarh.

I flared abit of my temper while walking towards the bus-stop. =x Hai. During the bus journey, Tw did palm reading & i laughed. hur hur. He is certified to be a conman. hahas kidding.

Home sweet home. =)

Ate supper & browsed through notes for ICT. There will be a test tmr.

Yawn... gd nite!

Hahas i am not troubled too much by ur issue Reeve. Just that you sound like blaming me for uploading & let others know what is happening. In the first place when you blog, you also let others know the message u wanted to convey. What's make you assume that no one reads your blog? It's just an excuse ba. However, I still appreciated you as a senior.

Monday

Took bus to AMK & passed Jimi Wallet to Lester. Btw that is the wallet i'm selling currently. Wallet that doesnt look like wallet. lols. He was with his friend so we didn't talk much. Quite wierd 'cos long time never see.

Caught the movie "Drillbit Taylor" with Delon. Nice & funny show. hahas. quite lame. If you are not feeling good, i think it's a movie that makes you laugh at least. =) Played afew rounds of pool as well. His pool skill not bad le.. hahas.

Had pepper lunch for dinner & home sweet home. Very tired now. Eyes wanna close le.

It's the same old question again. Heart & mind are not in agreement. We are both stubborn types. He will be happy and not sad about my decision. 1st time didn't work.. when humans don't change.. it wont change again for the 2nd time, i guess? Hope i'm right.

I know by uploading all these, it will strain our friendship senior. Yet in the first place you choose to drag me in for nothing, this is inevitable.

Who will keep quiet & act as if you didn't 被冤枉？ And i said you are jealous not b'cos who cares abt me, but b'cos you always think that no one cares for you. This is the jealousy that i meant. That's why you have this negative mentality for everything doesn't hold justice to you. No one ever says you are the devil. It's you yourself who thinks this way. Even if others wanna help you in becoming positive, it's so hard as you are too negative.

This is not peace at all when you didn't even realize the root/cause of this prob. No doubt you're still my friend but if you never 醒悟, then i only can say good luck to you. Because in life, there's nothing to complain except to analyse & change yourself for the better. That doesn't mean you are problem in the random situation but you hold the decision.

This is only a trivial matter to be brought up. Don't understand nevermind. =)

Sunday

Today never went anywhere except chilling @ TCC at Boat Quay at night. Upon reaching at 9pm, Damien kept saying i'm sad. hahas i got quite alot of issues troubling me but it's alright. Though acting blur is not the best way to deal with it, i ought to trust my own decision & no one can decide for others.

Tarot cards session. Sorry that i asked many qns. Some is true to a certain extent. Tw doesn't seem to be focusing. Maybe he's tired or maybe he doesn't want to decipher the cards. Either case is alright. hahas.

Kenneth came later 'cos he said he got a date earlier on. lols.

Took cab home.

Happy Vesak Day Everyone!

Sometimes i don't get the reason why people got to make such a fuss in order to seek attention from others. Why har? Can't you reflect what's the main prob 1st?

This is definitely not the way of knowing people who may care for you. So whenever you are jealous, you make a big fuss & my life started to shake. hahas. Get a life please. Luckily i'm strong to face all these unnecessary obstacles. lols yea. =x

Sunday =) Had a good rest till 3pm. hahaha! Lazy pig larh. Recently i saw how sweet my parents were. eg. Washing the car together. Though to us teenagers, it's seem to be just a household chore/simple action. I get to see my mom smiling more often than compared to the past. hehe.

Now i started to think in a bigger prospect, not just for my own self.

Cheers.

FCUK larh. Everytime i kena dragged into something for NOTHING. Yichao kor kor still said me ke lian. hais indeed. zzz.

Yesterday my tears flowed... I was in deep thought till i cried. Nvm shallnt mention what is it regarding.

Today.... stayed at home! hahas good girl stayed at home lor. Don't know how many weeks le leh... i have been staying at home...lazy to go out. hahas. Grow fungus soon. =/

Very pissed off now. I WONT mention anything in details but i'll just post all the conversations with Reeve here. It's up to you all to think logically.













我实在是受够了。。！！ 你们的事情不要扯到我这儿，想推卸责任是吗？！ 之前khai hung 的事件也一样。还有很多事但却都不关我的事啊！！他妈的。我忍无可忍了。

Sometimes though i decided to let things off, don't even think that i'm scared of anything. Don't ever try me. This is said to everyone in general.

Lazy to do tutorial.. lazy to wake up.. & lazy to go out. hahas next time don't ask me out on weekdays if i have to bring along my laptop. hahas 'cos i will be lazy to go out after that.

Anyway my class met a guai lan kia today. There was this guy with orange shirt & white specs knocking on the door. The next moment he spoke up & tried to chase us all out of the room. He said his class was gonna have lesson after our tutorial.

Alright. IF his tone wasn't so XL, my class would have just packed & left. But this cb guy was trying to act hero in front of his class girls larh.. so he chiong-ed in & started his boo-boo (act seh attitude). Buey song him & we told him we still got 2 more mins to go. ( btw his class starts at 12.10pm while my class ends at 12pm) Hahas. He guai lan so we also eng siew lor.

When we were going out, he seemed to stare at me so i stared back & diao-ed him. After that he purposedly shouted to his fren, " This class said they still got 2 more mins! bla bla.." Meaning that we gave them attitude instead larh.

So i spoke " ya we got 2 more mins leh.. so?!" Not talking to the guy larh but he could hear. hahas then he pekcek liao i think. hahas. ti-ti told his frenx dunno what sh!t larh.. then we were @ the lab, junhao kept scolding vulgarities. Thought what happened but was all bcos of the guy earlier on. He said that the fren of the guai lan kia told the guy that just ignore us larh... they (refer to my class) are just year 1s only.

HAHA. I heard liao wanna laugh lor. Act simi big sia. It's a compliment to praise my class is all batch of year one.

Seriously, don't try to act hero in class larh. No one is gonna save you when you are in trouble @ss.

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Next, i read Senior Reeve's blog just now. You could be upset that we didn't meet for quite long. You were the one who said you wanna stay at home de. You could be disappointed that i didn't catch up what's going on in ur life. But many things happened in my life recently & i'm so pekcek alrdy but never pen down only.

Yet you said that i become another person like them. hmmm.. is it fair to me just because i went out with them? I don't care the matter that strained you & them 'cos it's none of my biz. If u & them are not frenx anymore, i wouldn't care. If Senior you were to ask me out, of course i will go larh. But the thing is you never, the most recent meet-up is when i passed you the barbie dolls presents.

IF now the situation was that i asked them out but never asked you, then i wont be so sad & like kena 冤枉 after seeing your blog. BUT the thing was i NEVER ask anyone out. Hais. How can you anyhow link things up? =/ win liao lo. damn 冤枉.

What to do... got many frenx also sad. No frenx also sad. rahssss~~~ sian 1/2.

Yup, my blog is rotting indeed. >.< Just a quick update on recent events that happened.

Monday

We ( kenneth, damien & avelyn) celebrated Tze Wei's bdae in advance. Played pool @ Paradiz Centre. Weee accuracy has improved a little.

Had dinner @ Sakae Sushi. Wah, none of us knew the buffet price has increased to $35.90++ per pax. lols. Eat & eat & eat... but actually the food is okok only. Akira and Hanabi are better ones imo. (: After that played guessing game with Japanese Sake (cold) as forfeit. hahas. After which went to Starbucks, sang bdae song & cut the cake. Meanwhile they were doing their resumes using my laptop. lols. Home sweet home. Tired but still stayed up awhile to memorise the Hiragana Chart. hahas damn last min leh 'cos Tues got mini quiz. =/

Tuesday

Had Jap elective in the morning. Quite sleepy le but the tcher is quite funny so i enjoyed Jap lesson. hahas. Brought laptop to sch for the sake of bringing only. Hais so heavy yet didn't use except for file transfer. sian 1/2. Damien & Tw came to NYP to eat Mac. hahas. Met them at Mac then saw Junhao with his Mac set as well. hahas. Played shooting basketball machine till 3 fingernails broke. )): blood. Put plaster & continued playing basketball. hahas 13 credits ma. but gave up the rest of the 6 credits. Too tired le. Good form of exercise but bad form of money circulation. Wasted $$ lor. =x

After that we trained to Dhoby Ghaut to attend/observe the Psychology Class. Interesting. Learnt afew new knowledge. hehe. I would like to gain more knowledge next time but finance is still one of my main interest. x) No sch on Wednesday. Tw came to Hougang to pass me bdae cake. hahas coffee flavour. Sian gonna submit Marketing project on Week 5 & i haven't even touch it. ._. Remind me to chiong project! x_x Alot of things happened recently. What will you do if one of your ex asked for patch? Hmmm too tired to think of all these. Studies & family are top priorities now though i am a super slacker. (:

Life is always changing.

No jogging today. sorry man. hahas. =x

Very tired larh, i woke up around 12+pm.. had my lunch.. around 3pm go back slp again. hahas. woke up @ 5+pm & prepared myself to go to my cousin's baby 1st mth bdae celebration. =) Happy birthday small little Aden!

I got quite pissed off about one of my uncles. Who will ever forget when is Mother's Day?! He claimed that he had forgotten & didn't know what to do for Grandma..! Damn him larh. I am very sure my uncle is lying 'cos he already got plan for his own family. So unfilial~ hmph.

Second thing was, he actually refused to drive my other uncle (which is his elder bro) home & made an excuse by saying his car cannot sit so many ppl. yucks leh. so sickening! He's richer than my other uncle then he become like that. So my dad fetched my other uncle home. Heartless freak bad uncle! Treated siblings & parents like dirt. Not scared of Karma har... rahssss. Later got karma then he knows. :o




Spend more time with family! (:

Hello readers! Sorry for MIA. hahas kinda lazy to update blog.

Since the start of sch, it's been hectic & tiring. Nth much to update anyway. boring lurh. =p

Bought my new phone k850i on Wed. *ka-ching* $$$ flows out. sian. hahas too bad larh my previous chocolate phone batt spoilt.

Felt so lethargic today.

Mundane week. Tmr maybe go jogging IF i could wake up early. lols. =)

Have a nice weekend everyone! x))

Thursday

Labour day! lols. Went to watch Ironman @ PS with Tzewei & Damien. 2hr+ movie.. woots rather nice. esp. to someone who never watch Ironman series before. tsk tsk. =) Do watch man.. Before the start of movie, we went to play arcade. Met Jacus there too. So qiao.. he went out with his army brothers. hahas.

After movie we went to meet Kenneth & have our steamboat dinner. wah the place sux larh. hahas attitude staffs & lady boss. omggggggggg. hahas variety of food was limited too. Not much to comment. nvm. lols.

Friday

Sch day! rofl. nth much happened since i went home after lesson ended. lols. slacking sch life...uh oh.

Saturday

Woke up around 3pm today & i received a msg stating that meeting time was 4.30pm. Hence, i was late (as usual). hahahas. Chiong-ed & train-ed down to Bugis & guessed what... my phone batt was flat. -.-" Dead sia... i don't rmb ppl's contacts de lor.. so i tried many times to switch on my phone but in vain.

I waited for a while & tried, this time my phone was on so i searched for contact. When i finally found a number to call, my phone was switched off again! GOSH. I only glanced at the number for awhile. zzz.

Helpless. No choice but to seek help for stranger. hahas then i approached a lady & asked if i could borrow her phone to call my friend. lols & she was giving o.O stunned expression. I think she thought i wanna steal/snatch her phone lor! -_- faints. hahas.

Trying to recall & key in the numbers & the line got through. Phew~ hahas. Thanks stranger! (:

Met Damien, Kenneth & Tzeiwei @ Kinokuniya then we went to play pool @ Pool Fusion II. Wah nice matches. hahas. The only thing that spoilt my mood was the 2 bloody foreigners who were in their own world & kept talking loudly. Damn. I said " Shut up larh" but not sure if they heard or not. They changed table anyway. inconsiderate ppl.

Went to eat duck rice for dinner. hahas the usual duck rice i ate.. 'cos they have 25 stalls in S'pore. hehe.

After that walked over to a chill-out place who was decorated like a cosy home. hahas. Rather nice at the second floor. First floor was abit cross-cultural kind of decoration imo. Played Uno Stacko & had an interesting drink. i chose orange, tw chose purple, kenneth chose blue & damien chose green.

Overall a nice place for gathering.. calm ur mind..!! lols.

That goes another week. =p