Back at home... shagged. Later got to go to work.

Honeymoon period of my relationship is considered over. I feel not loved as much as before anymore...not that caring anymore. Perhaps he may feel the same too. Sometimes my heart is"screaming" inside...then tears flowed randomly and couldn't stop easily. I fcuking do not know what i want and why i pen it down. I just feel terrible and I need his attention... when ppl msgs him he won't tell me who..i will worry de ma.. esp. if it's from a female. He's still the one in my heart.

It's gonna be 2009 soon. May it be a good year for all of us...

Feeling tired after crying...but still gotta work. Cya.

Watched IP Man just now @ Cineleisure with dear. Funny and meaningful show. As in i got to know more about this heroic person and the history.

Not going to meet dear tmr... so tmr i got to go home myself after work. wakeke good also larh.. if not i will be dependent on him.

Agreed with Winnie Tan now that emotions will make us scratch our skins.. esp. boil blood or frustrated or angry etc. Last time she said one but i didn't know leh.. My newly-bought medicine is effective de lor but i'm still scratching at times now when my emotion is affected. Damn it.

It's gonna be 1am and i think i'm going to slp around 2am or so.

Goodnite.

Watched Twilight on friday with dear. Not bad larh... hahas quite romantic and touching =)

Dear bought G-shock watches for this christmas...! Mine is gold and his is silver. XD



=) Goodnight.

Sometimes if i don't care or bother so much... perhaps things will go smoothly.

Today i quarrelled with my dad in the evening... i was pekcek till i tidied up the table and shifted my laptop back to my room. I admitted i was harsh and rude by saying back... but i think he's not in a good mood as well.

Cut my hair today. LOL. Didn't notice weiyuan they all until he tapped me while i was with mummy at Hougang Mall. Then dear looked for me and mummy at Bugis after his work. Bought some tops and a bag in the end.

Dear had dinner at my house and stayed till 10 plus. Appreciated his accompany. But things don't go in the way. 1st was a girl called jessie added him on facebook. 2nd was a girl called rachel accepted his friend request. He said he had no idea... should be added her long ago but she only accepted now.

For me.. i am surely unhappy about it though he said he may add her in the past.. hai.

I'm really tired and heartache to react like this. I don't want him to be sian of me reacting like this. But seems like my dear did nothing wrong as he added her before we were together? I wondered if anyone knows the feeling that i'm having now.. hai.

How i wish i wont think so much... but i just couldn't help it. This may be the very first time that i worried so much for a guy.

):

Met my dear today..! (:

Supposedly today won't meet each other de... as i'm staying at home while he's working offshore. But he called me and said he would end work there early so gonna meet. Of course i'm happy.. though we last met yesterday =x

But some communication prob made us unhappy, especially for me. hai. Then dear also bu shuang alrdy 'cos he said i gave him temper. I kept silent during the ride to Bishan. After reaching, we were fine alrdy. Bought french-fried sausage, french chicken sausage, mushroom shitake and 2 packets of tao kae noi seaweed to eat.

Soon after, my dear didn't seem to be in his normal self. Kinda crazy... crapped alot of things. ): worried me alot. hai.. at first i kept quiet, but i buay tahan alrdy.. see him liddat but dunno what happened to him. So i asked him if he's fine..then he said he's fine but tired. >.<

Went to Hg mall to order Galare logcakes then went to my house to drink chicken soup. hahas.

Poor dear... next time don't liddat scare me can? you made me cry alot of times today. Bishan..in your car.. Hougang Mall... at home chatting on the phone..and even now when i'm blogging while u are in ur lalaland lerh. ='( hai. I don't want to see my dear like this.

Cannot continue typing le.. i need to wipe my tears.

Sad avelyn.

i opened the drawer..



some thing dropped down onto the floor..



and i screamed...!












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I conquered the journey to henderson wave from hort park! total 4.2 km..! hahahas.

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Just now i broke down. damn it. all bcos of the 2pid job that i gonna start work tmr. Pepp is the item i'm going to promote. Main function is to protect liver, enhance digestion and reduce hangover. Ingredients are made of soy protein, rice protein, vitamins, and enzymes that break down fat, starch and alcohol.

I cried b'cos i felt helpless and no one seems to understand me. I'm just wanting to earn some pocket $$ during this short holiday. But my mom said that if i didn't like this work, still sign the contract for what. She said till i never put in effort to find a job and reality is the opposite. I sent lots and lots of resume okays and due to this financial crisis, part time/ temp jobs are v hard to find already. Find jobs while studying is tiring lor.

My mom said that not like i am urgently in need of money what. But i have to also try to earn and spend with my own $$$ ma. My allowance is not alot also and i don't want to burden my parents lor. But they didn't know...

When i found a job, i have to worry about the sales. stress here and there. Promote to friends... they shoo you. I'm really appreciate for those who helped me out in the personal selling project. =D

hais. sometimes i really want to vent all out... reality sux.

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Can life just be fair?

From the start it was him who asked me to be zi dong and commited to this relationship. But why is it when things happened to him, it's a different outcome. For him is to eng siew. When one has a friend request on facebook, normally as the bf/gf, he/she will be curious. When male friends add me, he will ask when he is curious...feeling sian. When female friends add him, guessed what he told me last time? It is to Eng Siew. What logic is this? Click click eng siew only. WOrk so tired already still can click click play Vampires, Hugs etc recently wor. While my christmas gift to him... he didn't even unwrap and see. HAHA.

This morning, i came across FB and happened to know that his thai ex has sent an angelic hug to him. Though it is just an application, the point being that if u want others to be zi dong, he should set the example first right? Let's give a FAKE scenario.

Guy S was once my ex but i don't really fancy him but just very touched by what he had done. Let's say one day, I am playing with facebook HUG application and began to send HUGS to friends. In my point of view, I am sending as a friend. But when Guy S received the HUG notification, he may not view the same. Guy S may think that i am still concern about him and lead him wrong to think of the past memories as he falls for me last time. Possible right?

I am tired of giving in sometimes. Have i not being understanding enough? Every 27th is our month-sary. This month he even forgot this day. I know that he is very tired after work. Hai.

But when minor things pile up, it will become a big thing.

You told me it's just friendster, facebook... virtual kind of platform. But how come you will also sian when i reply ppl's comment? We will never know unless we put ourselves in someone's shoe.

Seriously this is the first time i quarrel with people through the phone in the classroom where everyone is present. First time to cry in sch in my entire poly life. When i am angry, my expression showed it all but i won't say anything unless being prompted a lot of times.

Will you trust someone when he/she says "no more next time" more than once? Things happen still.

I don't know why i cannot feel when he said i mean alot to him.

I can only cross my fingers to wait and see.