I told him about my feeling that somehow he has changed. He was no longer the one who will stand my temper, give me care and concern. From yesterday i took mrt home myself, I knew he was already numbed of my actions and did not put in the effort to me.

Please don't lie to urself that u still love me as much as before when I think u alrdy xi guan of my temper... To you perhaps u think i am always throwing tantrum and bcos of u 习惯, u seem to care lesser and lesser or even scold me vulgarities alrdy. I no longer felt pampered in any way till a point that i think it's much better to be just your friend.

Even if later on we talked on e phone, i guess i had nth to say. I just know i cried as i penned down my feelings.

Status now: HEARTBROKEN. what was once whole is falling apart..

Less than 1 year, and i'm not being treasured. I knew of my status next time. Below is what i wanna tell him but i could'nt say it out myself...

I need a beginning again
I want to feel how I used to feel
When everything was in the palm of my hand
And you were here with me

Ya know I just don't get it
Ya know I really don't get it all
That you would leave so sudden
Well did you know you would leave me all alone?
I think we've fallen apart
I don't know where I should start
You left me here to be broken hearted

Some days I wonder where I would be
Cos I don't think it was wasted time
I always thought you'd be waiting for me
And now I'm facing the world alone

I have failed as a girlfriend and i am utterly heartbroken. Nonetheless, school reopens tmr as I still gotta be strong on the outside.

Hope my new class is lively...