You told me to ask myself what i want... as you said you know what you want...and what you want is me...

I don't know why my eyes welled up, blurred my vision and sensed a flick of heart ache.

If all you ever want is me, why have you done such thing? why do you want to lie to me when i already know that you are lying? What's the use of being honest with me after all the lies you have made up.

I'm not a innocent girl anymore. I have my own thinking and you yourself clearly know what will happen if you lied to me again. But you still failed to keep your promise.

Now it's my turn to ask you, what do you really want? I know you are getting used to my lousy temper and flare at you when we quarrelled. I know you are tired and bothered by me. That's why you chose to lie to me even though you knew I would be much angrier.

Sometimes, I felt like everything was pretentious and fake during these 1 year plus. It made me cry when I thought of our build-a-bear teddy.. your recorded voice.. what you said and all.

If time could turn back, maybe I would hesitate as to whether I should go for your birthday celebration. Maybe I shouldn't fall for you in the first place... we would go out and be really happy. Maybe we will have good impression for each other..and be good friends.

Now, you are part and parcel of my life. If you really cherish me, please don't break my heart again. I'm not as strong as I seem to be.

If you know that you cannot take my temper and would rather ignore me and stay cold during quarrel, you would know that what you want is not me.

Men are all liars! Excuses to cover up your mistake. Not that I don't understand what you meant but i don't see a need for you to do such thing. This is the second time you have been caught lying to me. If you think that lying is normal, do all you want.

Just stop hurting me.............you won't know the feeling of someone special who lied to you and spent the day like normal...

Not only you're friendly, you can be a actor too.

It's so scary seeing your loved one becoming a total stranger. I don't know what you want out of all these. Everyday i am worrying for you.... whether you can manage your finance...when you want to take up an insurance package i did research for you.... you said you wanted to save money, I compromised by going home myself everyday. Everything has gone to waste. What am i to you?

I felt like i'm such a fool...

I'm going crazy..

Just a lil update...

Dear brought me to SAF yacht club for dinner after work. =) hahas. Luckily we reached there early and so we managed to catch the beautiful view of sunset scenery by the sea!

Wahahas.. quite nice to dine there but nth much to do after dinner. Thus, we went to Vivo City.

Saturday, dear fetched me to his hse to play PS 3 games with him. It's so addictive! lols mind and defense strategy game. lols.

Today is Sunday. Supposed to stay at home but dear said he's going out with his family and he woke up at 11am which is so damn rare! Okays I was a lil "bu4 shuang3" because he didn't ask if i wanted to come along even though they only wanna go to Toa Pa Yoh. hahas.

In the end, dear brought me out to Orchard instead. Hahas.

Tmr is another working week. =)

Hai ya.. dear complaint that he had pampered me too much.. till the extent that if he did something out of our routine I'll be unhappy and think a lot.

I'm at fault lar.. complaint about him that he didn't try to manage his $$ well. Indeed my dear has been fetching me home or meeting him for almost everyday. (: Eversince I said him... i think he's not gonna "spoil" me and treat me as his little princess anymore.

Gotta be independent! I always do but wish him to pamper me alot alot alot so that i know he loves me alot! Maybe i'm very sensitive...? lols.

How how how?! Am i being spoilt by him?