You told me to ask myself what i want... as you said you know what you want...and what you want is me...

I don't know why my eyes welled up, blurred my vision and sensed a flick of heart ache.

If all you ever want is me, why have you done such thing? why do you want to lie to me when i already know that you are lying? What's the use of being honest with me after all the lies you have made up.

I'm not a innocent girl anymore. I have my own thinking and you yourself clearly know what will happen if you lied to me again. But you still failed to keep your promise.

Now it's my turn to ask you, what do you really want? I know you are getting used to my lousy temper and flare at you when we quarrelled. I know you are tired and bothered by me. That's why you chose to lie to me even though you knew I would be much angrier.

Sometimes, I felt like everything was pretentious and fake during these 1 year plus. It made me cry when I thought of our build-a-bear teddy.. your recorded voice.. what you said and all.

If time could turn back, maybe I would hesitate as to whether I should go for your birthday celebration. Maybe I shouldn't fall for you in the first place... we would go out and be really happy. Maybe we will have good impression for each other..and be good friends.

Now, you are part and parcel of my life. If you really cherish me, please don't break my heart again. I'm not as strong as I seem to be.

If you know that you cannot take my temper and would rather ignore me and stay cold during quarrel, you would know that what you want is not me.